Thursday, April 28, 2011


I don’t usually get mad about a lot of things, but right now there is something that’s really just working my nerves. I don’t understand society’s double standard when it comes to food/body size.

It’s always “blahblahblah, don’t eat this don’t eat that.” and “blahblahblah you need to lose weight…this girl’s fat…that guy’s going to have heart disease.” And people are constantly degrading other people because of their size/shape/weight, which may not even be something that they can help, and it makes them feel absolutely terrible.

But then when someone tries to watch what they eat or attempt a diet, it has to be some huge secret because the same people that were just judging them for eating too much are now judging them for being a “priss about calorie intake.”

I’m sorry, but how is this okay? Coming from someone that has struggled with my weight for years, I can absolutely say that it’s not. If someone is counting calories/watching what they eat/dieting, then who are you to cut them down? Maybe they’re doing it for a legitimate health reason and not just because of what they see/hear people talking about. Even so, it’s constantly being thrust in our faces that we should look a certain way, but yet when we try to, we get chastised for it.

It just makes me sick.

Tuesday, April 26, 2011

Procrastination Blog 2011

I really need to get back on track.

A lot of things have happened in the last few weeks, and they're honestly not even worth blogging about at this point. My weight loss has taken the biggest hit from it, as I've been stuck between 18-20 pounds since the beginning of the month. I know that I need to get back on track, and as much as I try to convince myself that it'll happen this week and that I'll hit the 10% mark on Saturday, I just highly doubt that I will.

My last regular day of classes is tomorrow, and then I have four finals next week (2 Monday and 2 Tuesday), and then I get to head home.

As soon as I get home, I know that things will get better, because I'll be able to seriously consider every morsel that goes into my mouth without having a ton of papers and homework and exams and general pressures that come along with being a full-time university student. Plus, I'm going to buy the Zumba Kinect game ASAP when I return, which I know will help kick-start my exercise.

My goal for the summer is to lose another 30 lbs (going off of the assumption that I've lost 20 lbs, since that was the highest loss that I've seen recorded at weigh-ins.) for a total of 50 by the time I return to school, which is on August 10th this year.

I promise that I'll get better with updates and (for my own sake) eating once I'm done with school...I really need to, on both counts.